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I can add to my list of proud accomplishments in my life: walking around all day with wet underwear.
What I convinced myself happened: I unconsciously peed myself, or it happened consciously, but my mind was coping by rejecting the reality of such an embarrassing situation.
What actually happened: The water bottle in my backpack spilled and the water kept seeping from the bottom of my backpack to the inside of my jeans and down… there…
I can’t believe it’s not only a new month but a new year. Happy 2012! It’s taken me awhile to come back for a number of reasons, but first, I’m sorry to anyone who has called or texted in the last month because I left my phone charger at school. On top of that, my laptop charger broke too. By now, it’s probably safe to assume that the wired world hates me, yeah? Ahhh. I still don’t technically have a phone right now. I’m waiting for my new smart phone (my very first, eeeekkk) to be shipped to me this week or next week. This waiting period seems so long, but I’m so excited!
I’m actually a bit relieved I can’t reach anybody. My face had a really bad allergic reaction and looks like this:
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Hives, rashes, itchy skin…. not fun at all. Recovery is really taking its time.
Today, I spent the day unpacking my suitcase, doing my laundry, reorganizing my room, and sanitizing my bathroom. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m one of those people who find cleaning and organizing things extremely therapeutic. I’m feeling a lot less disheveled then I was a few days prior. Life seems okay. It’s early, but I’m already feeling tired. I have a full day of classes tomorrow. I want to sleep early and wake early. Good night!
Tis the season of papers, projects, and exams galore. I need to pull out my inner superhero, but I definitely have a problem because of howdistracted I am. The culprit is none other than you, Tumblr. I say this this with equal amounts of scorn and love. Blocking this site for the next three weeks so I can pass school and stuff. Be back in time for Christmas. Happy December! <3
I had a week filled with lots of food, family, and loving… what more could a girl ask for, right? I had been missing home cooking so much that I just turned into an eating monster for 5 days, hahah. I wish I took some pictures of my Korean-styled Thanksgiving feast. My camera has actually been in a lifeless state these past few months (much like this blog, eh?) Meh. I really need to go back to doing things I enjoy. I’ve given up on so many of those things. Definitely been digging myself into a hole. Right now, things seem a lot better, but it’s just going to take some time to crawl all the way out.
One thing I did miss out on on my oh-so-fabulous (and lazy) break was celebrating my close and dear friend Soy’s birthday. She turned the big 2-1 this weekend. It would have been such an awesome way to end my vacation, but I could only give her a hug and present before I had to rush to take my bus back here. I’m sorry Soy. I hope you had an awesome night of celebration. Love you always.
A picture of us from back in high school :)
I’ve never celebrated this before, but there is ths girl… she will give me gifts, draw me pictures, and leave me letters for all sorts of random occasions. What have I done to deserve getting such special treatment? Absolutely nothing. I’m again and again on the receiving end, trying to take all of this goodness and generosity with a grateful heart. I do feel awfully guilty for doing only this though, which is why in 2012, because of what has been shown to me, I want to make a commitment to strive to become someone who is more giving and less taking. You inspire me in this way and in so many other ways, my dear Susan. Thank you for being an amazing person, friend, sister in Christ. Love yoouuuu.
My beautiful library desk set up (between Thursday night and Friday morning/afternoon) Eye drops? Check. 99 cent Arizona Iced Tea? Check. Starbucks Card? Check. Starbucks Double Shot Espresso? Check. Candy fix? Check. Queen of all nighters? You betcha :)
Let’s chronicle the rough and depressing times of Jenny’s exam life, shall we?
Here has been my week:
MONDAY - Developmental Psych Paper Due
WEDNESDAY - Latin American History Midterm
THURSDAY - Statistics Quiz
FRIDAY - Microeconomics Midterm
And next week…
TUESDAY - Chinese Literature in Translation Midterm
WEDNESDAY– SE Asia History Midterm
THURSDAY – Statistics Midterm
I gotta admit that I’m feeling the culmination of my filth and exhaustion and mental crippled-ness right now. At this point, I really don’t care that much about grades, just praying that I can pull through. I know others are suffering through midterms as well, and I’m so sorry I can’t be a better support. I’m having a hard enough time even taking care of myself. I hope you guys understand my inadequacies as a friend <3 Aja, aja!
Yesterday, it took me 3 hours or something to write a paper on my “philosophy” of genetically altered food. I’m not quite sure how I found a way to write philosophically about a subject I barely knew anything about, but anyway, that isn’t what this post is about. What it’s really about is my one professor who is vehemently against all forms of agricultural biotechnology. She doesn’t support eating foods that aren’t organic because she thinks it goes fundamentally against nature, which is fine. More power to her for supporting local farmers and their organic farming practices, right? My big issue is that SHE HAS A BLACKBERRY. How can you refuse to eat genetically altered food because it vexes nature, and then use a mobile phone that pretty much espouses technology in every sense? It’s like vegans who don’t eat meat because they want to “end cruelty towards living creatures” and still wear leather jackets.
Sleeping. So essential in college and so futile during these summer nights that I restlessly toss and turn in bed. I hope watching some TV will eventually lull me to bed…
6:35am. Thurston Basement. Alone. Jittery. Incessantly Peeing. Running on Coffee. I love when my mind is this alert.
I feel like a shell of my former self. I wish I could go back to the days when I woke up early just to get dressed up, experimented with crazy make up just to see how it would look on me, stayed up late to piece together an outfit with the new skirt or cute shirt I just bought. Man, good days.
